I’m in a contemplative mood today so it is quite convenient that I found this nook at my school’s Cafe 939.
It is quite adorable and contemplativy.
I’m sitting here with my coffee, relieved that a huge project is turned in, and talking to my Dad on the phone. I think I’m genuinely one of those people who doesn’t take their families for granted. I might not talk to them as much as I should, but I sure know how blessed I am. I truly cannot believe I have them. Every moment with them is an extra blessing and there are so many who don’t have the same time or the same number of breaths…
I also spoke with my sister Sara about the song of hers I arranged for school (hence the turned in project). She wrote great lyrics and I rearranged the music. I love her so much. She is so grown up and loves the Lord so deeply. I feel as the older I get, the more I learn from her than she from me. The roles of childhood are so often reversed. My little brother Corey is a giant man now who beats me up and bosses me around, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
So I settle into my new roles in the family as we all are in the morning of our adulthood. The distance is excruciating, but the love is increasing. At least for me it is.
I go home in a few short days. I’ll miss Sara, but I’ll see the rest of them including the giant puppies who I also deeply miss…. even the stupid cat.
Drew will make me giant lattes
Katie Bug and I will do a beach trip
and I’m sure there will be many other shenanigans and late nights…
I arrived safely in Boston this morning after my brief trip to the motherland (South Florida). It was good to go home. My mom flew me down and for that I was quite grateful. I saw a few people, but mostly spent quality time with my family and really close friends.
I guess I feel like I’m learning how to not make myself feel guilty for things. A couple people mentioned the fact that they didn’t see me this past week, and frankly I’m ok with that. My husband will tell you that I have a problem worrying about what people think and making myself feel terrible for things that I can’t fix. It was good to rest and just see my family and close friends. On another note, I have had some great thinking time this past week being off from school and in a different environment. I’m sure I’ll be formulating some more cohesive ideas in the near future. I feel that God continues to mature and grow me. I am trying to keep my heart and head quiet and still enough to hear what He is trying to say.
I just finished my Ear Training 2 midterm singing and I am rather disappointed in myself. He decided to video tape us and we have to analyze our performance after break… It totally made me choke. This giant lens was staring me in the face and laughing at my failure. I actually got a better grade than what I thought I deserved so it will turn out ok…
It’s 42 degrees… pretty nice weather.
Progress is coming along on Paul’s film called Code Red. We did a basic spotting session last night and I wrote a cue sheet out. I think it will come together well.
In other news I miss these puppies, and I can’t wait to see them in 2 days. Going home for a week shall be grand.
Ryan made a comment today about feeling like going back to Boston is like jumping back into a story book after you put it down. I so feel that way! It’s like when you’re a kid and you make believe for hours or you half wake up from a great dream and so wish you can jump back in when you fall asleep and it only works half the time. Living there overall really does feel like an adventure. It isn’t fun all the time and I struggle with worry, but if I knew the answers it wouldn’t be our story. People in the movies or books never knew what happened next…
Oh what a great month this has been. My batteries are charged. I still worked but time with our peeps was fabulous.
On a similar note, Ryan wrote me a sweet song for Christmas that I am trying to figure out how to post so people can hear. It is so special and all about doing our adventure together and having no idea what comes next, but having each other. It’s terrific.
Ok so everyone go to sleep tonight and have one of those dreams …
the epic ones where you’re the hero and fight off bad guys and someone falls in love with you…
and also where animals can talk and chocolate is a vegetable…
This is what I do on break… try to memorize the ranges of different instruments. I have to do it sometime if ever I am to really write… I’m looking forward to going back to Berklee and also sad to leave. Goodbye to Florida in one week from today.
I am a mental slave to my own self. All the worry and stress I am just simply done with. Our financial situation has been precarious for some time but so what? It’s just numbers on someone’s balance sheet. My worth is not in this world. I have one week left in Florida before returning to Beantown and I really can see the changes in our life as I look back at the last three weeks.
I just don’t care to see people as much anymore because time is so precious. I want to see the ones I really care deeply about; the friends and family who I know will continue to be in my life even though I live 2,000 miles away. I miss the things and even the close relationships that have changed… people are growing up, starting new schools and jobs, getting married, and don’t like to reminisce as much as I do… alas the movement of life is too forward for me at times.
One good thing is that we’ll be having some loved ones visit us up north very soon. Memories shall be made and fun will be had.
I know I’m where I’m supposed to be and I know God will provide like always… Enough worry.
I’m just going to start punching my worry in the face.
The last couple weeks have been very interesting indeed. I was looking forward to a busy week at school, mom coming, and my concert followed by a trip to Florida when Dad showed up and surprised me in Boston. It was a great couple days. Mom visited, I played in the Berklee Contemporary Symphony Orchestra concert (pictured below) which was one of the best musical experiences I have had so far. I really am looking forward to orchestra again in the spring.
I began to come down with a cough and slight fever that night and the sickness took over after that. I panicked because I was supposed to sing and give the speech at Katie Bug’s wedding. I went to Florida and felt like death. It was strep throat. Thanks to some antibiotics and strong steroids I could sing about 80% which is better than none :]
And Donovan and Katie are married! What a beautiful day. I cried my share as did most involved. What a privilege to share in such a beautiful, romantic day. I love you Bug.
So I know I’ve been less than consistent lately which is ironic since some people will read this to keep up on what I’m doing…. I just saw the movie Julie and Julia which is about a girl blogging, so I can’t end today without another post. By the way, it’s a pretty good movie. It’s about Julia Child and another regular girl named Julie who works through her cookbook 40 years later…. it’s cool. It’s a good renter. Don’t see it in the theaters for $53.
Ryan and I will definitely be updating more as this move happens because frankly, we won’t have many friends at first. :] It’s ok we’ll make good new friends. By the way you can always keep up with Ryan at his blog HERE.
So it’s good night again dear interwebs. I have two more days as a South Floridian although I will always be a Floridian no matter where I go. I am excited and ready.
Next small challenge: trying to get both my large instruments on and off the plane without suffering major damage.
So today is quite possibly the most splendid day ever. It’s the time that we Floridian’s suffer through the summers to get while those Michiganders are freezing their noo noos off. I went running and I was actually running faster just to feel the wind in my face. I was relishing the beauty and I was reminded of the song Beautiful Day by U2. Good song. Ryan A played it at our wedding. I actually read the words and it made me feel. They made my heart sing. The verses are filled with sadness and trouble like everything is, but, these words, they speak on their own.
Chorus It’s a beautiful day Sky falls, you feel like It’s a beautiful day Don’t let it get away
Bridge What you don’t have you don’t need it now What you don’t know you can feel it somehow What you don’t have you don’t need it now Don’t need it now Was a beautiful day