I received these pink tulips from Ryan for Valentines. I love them and they remind me of the hope for spring that all us New Englanders are holding on to. Even though Valentines is a ‘contrived Hallmark holiday’ I still love an excuse to hang out with my dear Ryan, dream about life, eat dark chocolate mousse, and be an example of a married couple who still keep the romance alive.
Every year that goes by, I more sure that we are a perfect fit.
abrupt subject change
A short list of thoughts and things I’m looking forward to:
1. Finding out whether Ryan gained entrance into the PHD program at BC
2. Hanging out with my lovely sister Sara in Boston this weekend
3. Better understanding how to use Digital Performer (because I’m really struggling now!)
4. Our upcoming 4 day trip to Washington D.C…. I cannot wait to explore a new city and go away on a much needed vacation
5. Urban Outfitters sells great pants
6. I’m frustrated in my quest to lose a few pounds, but I press on hoping my continued efforts will yield results!
Ryan made a comment today about feeling like going back to Boston is like jumping back into a story book after you put it down. I so feel that way! It’s like when you’re a kid and you make believe for hours or you half wake up from a great dream and so wish you can jump back in when you fall asleep and it only works half the time. Living there overall really does feel like an adventure. It isn’t fun all the time and I struggle with worry, but if I knew the answers it wouldn’t be our story. People in the movies or books never knew what happened next…
Oh what a great month this has been. My batteries are charged. I still worked but time with our peeps was fabulous.
On a similar note, Ryan wrote me a sweet song for Christmas that I am trying to figure out how to post so people can hear. It is so special and all about doing our adventure together and having no idea what comes next, but having each other. It’s terrific.
Ok so everyone go to sleep tonight and have one of those dreams …
the epic ones where you’re the hero and fight off bad guys and someone falls in love with you…
and also where animals can talk and chocolate is a vegetable…
and you happen to be fabulously wealthy…
I am a mental slave to my own self. All the worry and stress I am just simply done with. Our financial situation has been precarious for some time but so what? It’s just numbers on someone’s balance sheet. My worth is not in this world.
I have one week left in Florida before returning to Beantown and I really can see the changes in our life as I look back at the last three weeks.
I just don’t care to see people as much anymore because time is so precious. I want to see the ones I really care deeply about; the friends and family who I know will continue to be in my life even though I live 2,000 miles away.
I miss the things and even the close relationships that have changed… people are growing up, starting new schools and jobs, getting married, and don’t like to reminisce as much as I do… alas the movement of life is too forward for me at times.
One good thing is that we’ll be having some loved ones visit us up north very soon. Memories shall be made and fun will be had.
I know I’m where I’m supposed to be and I know God will provide like always… Enough worry.
I’m just going to start punching my worry in the face.